I like freeing my mind. I'm taking slightly less of the Zeldox - only one 20 mg pill per day. It's freed my mind considerably. Yes, I've got more to say, as you can see on here, and on my google+. Yes, it's annoyed some people. But it feels good to talk via virtual paper. Helps me get out some of the angst in there.
Something that I thought about and want to write about. Social anxiety. I have it and don't acknowledge it. An invite to a coffee gathering and chat has caused me to alert the flight or fright complex. I'm just vocally expressing this now. Coming to realize that it's normal in Asperger's people. I feel slightly crazy that I'm afraid to go talk to some people at a friendly gathering. But it means I have to suit up with my social suit on, and behave myself, carefully. Not talk too much, too loudly, too many opinions. Staying at a normal level. It's work essentially.
Social anxiety isn't fun to deal with. I like to think of myself as warm, open, lovely. I try to be all of that. But it's hard when deep deep down you're scared of being rejected again. Laughed at, openly. I know that won't happen but it's there, The scars from that happening in high school.
I hope this helps me explain myself a bit better.
Stay happy and joyful.
Don't bother just to be better than your contemporaries or predecessors. Try to be better than yourself. William Faulkner